First of all, I went to the fashion school near work at 5PM and I saw no catwalk rehearsal !
I have to say that because otherwise it seems I claimed that I live in a cool world, but in fact it's not all so easy.

A lot has been written recently, on my Japanese blog on Mixi. Mixi is great and tricky at the same time. It entices Japanese by being a closed system where everything is controller. People can only join if invited. I suppose it's a bit like MySpace where one is related to other people. But there is a lot less freedom on posting formats. Only recently some cute cell-phone icons became available. In fact, Mixi is probably mostly used by cellphone... Japanese net services ought to work well on cellphones, ehh !

Over there I complained a lot about my gf (or ex-gf) but I also admitted that my first careless reaction was not as truthful. After that, some other things happened and, basically, I've been softened (pussy-whipped). Somehow women do have this innate power to manipulate men. Let's leave it at that...

Yesterday night I went out clubbing and it was great... to dance !
A couple of friends of mine somewhat pushed me to talk to some girl.. she seemed cool, but I wasn't too upbeat, and, as usual, I was cold as ice. I tried not to touch her. But we had to touch somehow !
Nothing more happened, I think it would have been the same if I weren7t ice-cold, but my insecurity of being freaking cold surely never helps ! Actually I noticed that later in the night my body temperature went back to a somewhat normal level.
If you want to know more (not that much more) about the night, you should look into the report I've written for TokyoClubbers.com .
Speaking of TC.. I've been neglecting it. Somehow the site where I was getting the schedules from doesn't offer schedules anymore. So, now I'm busy writing the next Python script to extrapolate the schedules from yet another site. Hopefully this one will stick !
Also I've been busying harvesting new ideas and making new prototypes for other sites, mostly for the Japanese public.. because I would like to use my insight into the Japanese culture. It's a bit like TV shows, where you see a show in US and then a slightly different format in Italy and a slightly different format in Japan. The concept works, but the details need adaptation.
...something like that.

Back to yesterday night.. I was just glad to dance, to get away from the relationship bullshit. Some of my friends here already know the drill: I drink a lot (kazmilk !), I eat almost nothing, my mood swings and I crave the for woman to show up, while she slowly starts thinking that I'm more and more of a needy looser 8)
That's the plan ! I'm afraid that's usually my plan.
While I'm with a girl I start spotting defects, I try not to be judgemental but I can't help it. I'm nice all the way but I don't give 100% and the woman feels it. So, when she finally gets the message she tries to move away and I act happy... and then I go back to my thoughts and I realize that I spent so much time with this person that she's basically family to me... but then women are always more powerful, they can get new attentions in no time and basically forget whatever happened.

The woman however will enjoy a new relationship until it goes to trash and then bring back old memories and go look for the previous boyfriend. This makes it a waste to break up in first place, and my optimizing mind tells me that the woman should stick with me all the way because she can't find much better anyway 8)

It's a never ending cycle... and from the bottom of my heart, I can't blame women that much because everyone is screwed up in away or another and while it may not look like it at first, passively I'm a rather testing person.
It doesn't help that I like girls that are much younger than me, but at my age, in Japan, I can't possibly aim at my age range, as all women are supposed to get married by 30.

And so... I've done this before so I'm going to survive, but it sucks to have to turn the most intimate person into a memory.
Relationships are a crazy thing !